I Wonder: Julie

Over the last two months, a dozen students from three continents met to write and reflect as part of the Writers Matter program. The following piece comes from Julie in Jerusalem, and is from the “I Wonder” series

I wonder whether I’ll cease this endless running,

Running towards a dream that sleeps further away 

Escaping from problems that keep sweating away 

I wonder if I will ever stop running, every day, 

will I ever be able to seize the day.

will I ever be able to pause and take it all in, 

To breath, to feel.

but I know the cost  to feel everything at once. I tried for a moment. It ached me  more than the  endless escape.

I wonder if I will ever surrender, and let go of  the rose with thorns that I chose to hold.

I wonder if I ever would reclaim the happiness I felt as I was a kid

The simple life I once knew, where the sun rises and sat each day.

I wonder whether the smallest things which brought me joy will ever bring me joy again. 

I wonder will I ever feel it all?

But why do I wonder when I feel nothing, but at the same time I feel everything. So I wonder…


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